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Subject:still? Always about J. Vizzle
Time:08:49 am
I just wanted to let you all know that those pills I snorted and took, fucked me up. I have not been to sleep since I woke up yesterday at noon yesterday. I don't feel a wink tired and it's 8:43 am... if I lay down.. I might just get up and start dancing around. I'm going to listne to Enya dn try to fall asleep and maybe everything will be better. If Jenny reads this.. she's gonna ask to look at my arm.. I know it. The look on her face will be devastation. It will be sadness. The look that makes me think she will cry... for me. She'll want to touch them. She'll want to make everything better. I don't think she can. But I know she's helping a whole hell of a lot. I don't want her to go. She's the first one in a long time that actually cares if I cut anymore. She feels actual hurt inside her body. I've never had someone feel my pain for me, but when she rubs my scars... My sadness goes away.
Thank God for Jenny Vance.
ps... almost all my journals have been about Jenny, but that is okay, because right now she is my best friend. I would do anything for her. I want her to know that, even though, she most likely already does. I haven't moved from this spot in 3 hours. It's going to hurt getting up. The only muscles moving are my arms... I haven't gotten up to pee or get a drink or food or anything. Not even to turn on the heater cause I am freezing. My tootsies are ice cubes...
oh well...
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darkennarcissus
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Time:2005-11-14 08:47 pm (UTC)
I love that we can come together over a shared love of Miss Jennifer Lucilla Vance.
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